im the happiest ive been in ages.
just from the thought of leaving for sweden makes me smile,
the thought of skipping town and getting out of this place,
its ok, but i need a break.
my only wish is that i have the willpower to return.


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my dad always tells me i should join the army "it would be good for me"
it probably would be, but i dont think he understands that engineers die the most in war.

sometimes, when im feeling like i need to leave, need to escape from this place, my home which i love but nevertheless need, from time to time a break, a pause in my somewhat pre planned pre determined life (work 8-5, car, house, wife, kids), of which i do not intend on conforming to, conforming is not what i do, i do not know how, i cant even bring myself to conform to minority groups who are conforming for the greater good, of which is to not conform to the majority, the populations views and actions.

when i feel this need to leave, i do. and if i can not for some reason at some specific point in time

sometimes when im driving, driving to some arbitrary destination in my arbitrary life, i turn off the radio, and turn on the air conditioner - or heater depending on circumstances, to lever four/four, and just drive, preferably on the fwy, simulating the sound and feel of an aeroplane, simulating that feeling of freedom, freedom one can only experience from travelling 12000 kilometres above sea level.





eta sweden: 9 days
eta europe: 122 days

i want that beach
i want that life
the life offered by that isolation
that life of no care
where the only thing that matters are your basic human necessities
i want that freedom

unfortunately i will only ever experience glimpses of what i desire,
and what may or may not have been offered on that beach

although, i do not want the complications that inevitably come from such paradise