im the happiest ive been in ages.
just from the thought of leaving for sweden makes me smile,
the thought of skipping town and getting out of this place,
its ok, but i need a break.
my only wish is that i have the willpower to return.


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my dad always tells me i should join the army "it would be good for me"
it probably would be, but i dont think he understands that engineers die the most in war.

sometimes, when im feeling like i need to leave, need to escape from this place, my home which i love but nevertheless need, from time to time a break, a pause in my somewhat pre planned pre determined life (work 8-5, car, house, wife, kids), of which i do not intend on conforming to, conforming is not what i do, i do not know how, i cant even bring myself to conform to minority groups who are conforming for the greater good, of which is to not conform to the majority, the populations views and actions.

when i feel this need to leave, i do. and if i can not for some reason at some specific point in time

sometimes when im driving, driving to some arbitrary destination in my arbitrary life, i turn off the radio, and turn on the air conditioner - or heater depending on circumstances, to lever four/four, and just drive, preferably on the fwy, simulating the sound and feel of an aeroplane, simulating that feeling of freedom, freedom one can only experience from travelling 12000 kilometres above sea level.





eta sweden: 9 days
eta europe: 122 days

i want that beach
i want that life
the life offered by that isolation
that life of no care
where the only thing that matters are your basic human necessities
i want that freedom

unfortunately i will only ever experience glimpses of what i desire,
and what may or may not have been offered on that beach

although, i do not want the complications that inevitably come from such paradise

in other news,
i trimmed my nose hairs for the first time last night.

everything is cooler when your wearing gloves

will police horses peruse speeding

cars, what if you ran a red light.

what if you were on a horse and

ran a light, would they chase you?

and have a high speed horse chase.

i should get a fast ex racing

horse and try it out.

or taunt them until they peruse

can/will police horses peruse

speeding cars, what if you ran a

red light.

in front of horse police, will

they peruse.

what if you were on a horse and

you ran a light,

would they chase you then.

and have a high speed horse chase.

i should get a fast ex racing

horse and try it out.

or taunt them until they peruse

Black Hawk Down

in high school i was so obsessed with the movie

black hawk down, not only did i analyse it as a

book twice for english, i used a line from it

during a break up
"you know what i thank, it dont matter what i

think"

confused

today i saw an audi with the number plate '1BMW 242', poor thing must be so confused. dosnt fit in anywhere.
teased by other audi's, rejected by bmws. a lost cause, a lost soul.

get google wave.

funny how my first every best friend has the same name as the ex girlfriend i cant stop thinking about
the friend comes back into my life just as i nearly stop thinking about the ex.

with in every nature caused disastrous event, something beautiful can be taken from it
reference to BigPicture - Icelandic volcano eruption and USA BP oil spill

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nantional, everyone is having a bad day today

nothing alice cant fix

ever notice that you cant hear a clock ticking unless you look at it.

it seems evident that all old people do is spend their time in doctors waiting rooms and post offices. thats if they can move or think.

the most startled i ever get is when someone opens the door im opening from the other side, because, for a second i think ive opened the door unintentionally with my mind

i wish i could dance 1950s rock and roll style. im sure i would get all the chicks, esp this one

accomplishments

one of my biggest accomplishment was to piss standing

on an aeroplane during heavy turbulence, with a 90%

success rate

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/bestill

i think, in my honest opinion, that being a pool boy would not be that easy.
getting leaves out a pool with the hand held thing, ie no help from machines, is not so easy.
sure the first 80% is easy, and the next 10% is just a little harder. but once you get to chasing one leave at a time, begging it to leave the floor of the pool it becomes time consuming.

although, getting paid to do it, with a chance of sex (as desperate housewives insists occurs regularly)

dear shannyn

i was going to write this on your wall but dont think others should read it.
you remember that bottle of water i got from a fair at uni one day. and the water inside looked so perfect and pure, free of any impurities, that i never opened it. well my room got really bad this time and im cleaning it and so i found the bottle, still in the same place its always been, just in case i needed water, i dont know maybe thats why it stayed there, well, im sure you can guess what i did with it.
yes i threw it away.
no not really, i opened it and drank a little. tasted OOOK, no impurities or anything. but then i smelt it
and it smelt like an old room that had been locked for centuries and housed mainly books and the first newspapers that were ever made. not so good.
so i only had like 3 little mouthfuls, just to check the taste.
as im writing this my stomach is not feeling the best, but im going to say its cos im hungry. which im suuure you will agree with despite above.
i think im going to edit this and put this on a blog.

and i watched a good movie - dear wendy and they had two songs by the zombies - time of the season and shes not there. if you havnt already you should download them. you will fall in love with them. maybe, probly not as much as i have though. i made a playlist with only those two songs and listened to them for daaaays.

i found nemo

i went snorkelling off an island off papua new guinea and after some time swimming, i came across nemo hovering in a sea anemone, just starring at me. lettings its presance to me known, in order to protect its kids or something, while at the same time still shit scared unfinished

owl my friend

i just caught the last train home, arriving at me station before realising i left my keys with someone in the city resulting in me now having to walk home as i can not drive my car which is at the station due to having no keys.

but then! during my walk i noticed there was the most beautiful baby owl sitting on the fence swivelling its head around looking at me from all directions as i walked by, so i continued walking back and forth about a metre away watching it swivel its head all around, easily making up for the fact i forgot my keys.

the world works in mysterious ways.

pool is fixed

pool is swim-able for the first time since it transformed into a fully qualified backyard swamp 2 years ago.

my music tops of 09, according to lastfm

http://www.last.fm/user/davidaction

beach is the ONLY place to be at 3 in the morning